In an effort to put a face on addiction, FortThomasMatters.com is documenting her journey. It's real and raw and relevant. She is our Northern Kentucky neighbor. She is our heroine. Her story is important.
First, thank you all for those who have read the first part of my story and are interested in the rest. I figure I should share how this all began and what my life was like growing up.
I was raised by loving parents and I have a sister that is five years older than me. Nothing happened to me as a child that I can blame any of my life choices on. I had a great childhood and was shown plenty of love. I was very active in soccer and strived to be the best; a character defect that I fight with still today.
My inner spiritual maladies appeared at a very young age. As a child I would throw temper tantrums when things didn’t go my way and always had to be the center of attention whether it was in a good way or bad. I have no idea how my mother survived my childhood especially my teenage years. God must have carried her through, because I treated her horribly as I got more and more defiant and out of control.
I went to school and fought it every step of the way, the only thing I looked forward to was soccer. My freshman year I tried out for the High School team and didn’t make it, to say the least I was absolutely devastated. No longer having soccer in my life gave me plenty of time to myself and that was absolutely the last place I wanted to be….alone.
I began drinking and drugging in my spare time because it was a release from self. The drugs that were popular in the 1990’s were pot and LSD, neither hard to find. I got my first DUI when I was 16 years old coming home from a party I was drunk and on acid. The phone call to my parents was definitely not a pleasant one. I was put on probation. My parents didn’t know what to do with me, they put in a hospital for adolescents with “issues” this was to be the first of many trips to Behavioral Health units.
I never saw how much my drinking was affecting my family and how it began to dominate my life……